My oh my has a lot happened since the last time I blogged. I had my baby already, gave birth to a beautiful little girl who’s just so precious. My bf and I are moving in together. He’s cleaning out his room right now as we speak and he just showed me a a couple of pixes of he and his ex that he still had.. Hmm first thought that came to my head was ‘WTF?’ Who still keeps pictures of their exes while u’ve been dating someone else for 9 months SMH . Its not that I’m jealous or anything kuz what’s there to be jealous of lol she’s a fatty -_- its more about the principles. I asked why he still had it and that when a lot of ppl break up they usually trash all the pixes and what not.. All he said was something about not ifthe break up didn’t end badly? I guess u can say I’m a little hurt by it, obviously this wasn’t part of his plans (having a baby so soon and stuff) and I’ve told him numerous of times that we DON’T need to move in together but he insists on it so we can be a family. I’m a little nervous… Not sure how this is all going to turn out for us, living together will either bring us closer or tear us apart and that’s really something I don’t want.. Maybe that’s why I’m second guessing on us living together. Oh well I guess we’ll just have to wait and see how things turn out, more than likely ill be blogging about it and venting if anything ^.^

Its been awhile since my last post on here. A lot has happened

For one, I’m pregnant! Eeek, still waiting to see how far along I am that way I can know for sure and start telling my family and ppl at work.

Things for my bf and I are starting to feel a little different… I need to vent and since no one else besides my bf knows about the pregnancy I thought I’d turn to tumblr.

Anyway, back to what I was saying .. All this just seem so surreal like its still hard for me to comprehend it and absorb it all I guess.
Since my boyfriends graduated from school it seems like he’s been distance, he was really gunning for this promotion that he didn’t get so all he’s been doing is studying for this pham tech test and I feel like I’m all alone at this. All of his hopes and dreams like traveling and getting his motorcycle is all down the drain and I can’t help but feel awful and as if its all my fault.. No matter how much he tries to comfort me and tell me everythings going to be ok I just don’t believe it.

I miss my mom and sister a tons, their all back in Sac now so I’m pretty much on my own here. I wish they were here supporting me and letting me know everything will be ok, I’m scared out of my mind worried.

I wish I can say things were different but its just one of those ‘everything happens for a reason’ type of situation, so we’ll see where this journey and path leads us

aww! too cuteeee :))

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I HATE HATE HATE HATE CRYING :((( IT MAKES ME FEEL SO WEAK AND VULNERABLE.

TRIED HOLDING IT IN BUT I JUST CANT, ITS ONE OF THOSE THINGS WHERE U NEED TO CRY TO LET IT ALL OUT THAT WAY U CAN FEEL BETTER…

i want to have kids, get married, live in a white picket fenced house..the whole 9 yards. being only 22 i still i think im too young to even be thinking about marriage and kids, but i want all of that with him and only him.

man oh man its a new year and im already stressed out.. i guess you can say i kind of brought it upon myself being so behind on things.

all i can do now is see what i can do to fix this, no point in crying bcs its not going to solve anything or get u anywhere.. i know my mom will be p.o’d but it is what it is and like i said i brought it upon myseld and now i might have to miss work again to deal with this.

didnt feel the need to fill my bf in on it bcs he doesnt need to worry about me and my problems right now.

i honestly dont know what im going to do if it doesnt work out and i dont get my car back. hopefully things will work out and everything will be right back on track, i remember reading something on twitter about how god wouldnt put u in situations he knows u couldnt handle..im not a churchy or religious person what so ever but remembering that quote is the onlly thing keeping me from falling apart and blowing up -_-

some way to start off the new year i guess.. . im really happy i got to ring in 2011 with my boyfriend, hes so awesome. i feel awful for being such a nagging bitch on our trip to vegas i want to do something to make that up to him. all he wanted was to try to make the trip fun for me but now that i think back all i did was complain :(

i know he cares about me a lot and worries for me even though i tell him not to and that i can handle everything/anything that comes my way… i can honestly say i love him for that, i havent told him i love him yet bcs i didnt want to rush anything even though i feel it and i dont want to make the same mistakes i did before with my previous ex.

the first time my bf told me he loved me i asked him, ‘why do u love me?’

which wasnt something he was expecting to hear :(( im one of those ppl where i believe theres an answer to everything but when it comes to love sometimes u just know and cant explain it.

after i asked him that he said he was never going to bring it up again..

and i dont blame him. i love him and when im ready to tell him that in person i hope he’ll still feel the same way about me..

anyways, back to the situation i was talking about earlier on my blog, we will see what happens. i have to try to make the best of this year and learn from my mistakes, i blame myself for being so behind on payments and everything all thanks to my ex bf.. never again will i let that happen. ill hop back on here soon and let u know how everyhting goes until nx time xoxo

this looks so yummy!

We’re girls, we get jealous, we will hate that mother fucker who spams your facebook, we tend to assume things, our imaginations go wild. Every second you take to reply, thousands of things goes through our heads ; who you talking to? Is it that mother fucker bitch? We start assuming, and this is when we get insecure. But then.. we’ll try comforting ourselves, we’ll think back to our conversations and make ourself believe you ain’t that type of guy. So don’t disappoint us.

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